About me

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My purpose in life is to use my life experience and psychic intuition to help people struggling with alcohol, cannabis & nicotine addiction, spiritual awakening & shadow work. 

I provide judgement free insight while working through shame and guilt, mindfulness and staying present, learning to manifest, personal transformation, developing healthy self talk, self love and self care skills. 

I have experience with managing and obliterating anxiety, depression and PTSD, psychedelic micro, mezzo and macrodosing and psychedelic journey work and integration. 

I am a mentor to masculine of center women of all ages, and can help with embracing and loving yourself and your female body while being incredibly masculine, breaking negative behavioral patterns, generational trauma and shame associated with appearance and self image.

Together, we can address self worth and worthiness issues, finding self confidence and creating authenticity, discovering self awareness and self realization, and learning to live life with a positive intention based mindset. 

My name is Michou and I am a 51 year old woman. My history with trauma started when I was 5 years old and being sexually molested by one of my grandfathers. As I got a bit older, the knowledge of my Clairsentience, Claircognizance, and Clairvoyance abilities  very troubling to me as I had no understanding of those gifts nor did I feel comfortable talking with my parents about them. The challenge of learning how to navigate being incredibly masculine and female was also taking center stage, as was dealing with daily physical abuse and torment for being a girl who looked like a boy. Without adequate support to help me cope, I drank alcohol, smoked cannabis and took a variety of drugs (often cocaine, LSD, Ecstasy and psychedelic mushrooms) as often and as much as possible to help me escape my daily crippling depression, anxiety, trauma and abuse. By my late teens, I had lost my connections to psychedelic medicine, and instead turned to drinking most every day to cope with the insurmountable sadness and unresolved trauma I was experiencing and had experienced. My lifestyle became one of excessive daily drinking and cannabis smoking for the next 35 years. I was reintroduced to psychedelic mushrooms in early February 2018, and after taking 3.5-4 dried grams recreationally once a month for 8 months, I woke up on October 23rd 2018 with the most profound inner calm and peace I had ever felt in my life. I just didn't feel the need to drink to escape the torments and darkness of my mind and to fill the empty hole inside myself I had felt since I was a teen. 

Amazingly, my desire to drink was absent until July 2019, when several major personal trauma events transpired... a major four procedure shoulder surgery + my then girlfriend abandoning me alone in her house for four days and nights 6 days after my surgery with only the use of my left arm and on pain meds every four hours for immense pain. Alone and in excruciating pain I suffered immediate PTSD which sent my long standing anxiety and depression into new and terrifying places. On the 4th day I received an anonymous text telling me I was no longer welcome on the premises and I was to vacate immediately. With only one functional arm, I was forced to pack my room and car and drive back to Massachusetts from Indiana. My immediate departure also meant I was immediately homeless when I arrived back in Massachusetts.  I was not in a place mentally to handle my radically altered life and unfortunately, my desire to drink came back. I decided to do an experiment on my myself and my compulsive desire to drink by using psychedelic mushrooms. In the midst of attempting to destroy my lifelong desire to destructively consume alcohol by taking twice monthly macrodoses of psychedelic mushrooms, I had a profound and positively life altering spiritual awakening. In addition to awakening, on three specific larger dose mushroom journeys I was fortunate enough to be clearly shown my true path and purpose in this life. Specifically, that I must pursue the path of self realization/psychedelic guide using my psychic abilities to help others gain insight and connect to their consciousness and purpose, while also helping them work though trauma, depression and addiction issues by using plant medicine and entheogens. 

Fast forward to today, and that 35 year desire to drink more than a six pack a day is gone. Like gone completely. It just doesn't occur to me to want to drink. Nor does it occur to me to need to smoke weed or cigarettes daily.  Ever. 

I am also no longer homeless, and have done massive inner personal work around my childhood and generational trauma.

In fact, the smell of any alcoholic drink burns my nose and I am instantly nauseous if I drink anything alcoholic. Without a doubt, I truly feel psychedelic mushrooms rewired my entire body, on a cellular level, to be repelled by alcohol, and to no longer need to escape myself, my mind and life with daily substance use. In fact, the rewiring and improvements to myself don't stop with my no longer having the desire to drink alcohol, or use cannabis or nicotine. I feel overall as though I have been enhanced, expanded and improved somehow, like I've leveled up into a higher form of existence, gratitude and consciousness. My daily crippling depression, PTSD and anxiety are vague memories, and when I think about my past, it doesn't really even feel like mine anymore. My suffering and torment are no longer part of my life. In addition to that amazingness, there is the most beautiful peacefullness inside myself  with the accompanying awareness that I will never be returning to my old life and to those ways of living and coping ever again. I am absolutely aware that psychedelic mushrooms simultaneously saved and enhanced my life, and I will forever advocate and educate for and about them. 

Since my spiritual awakening, shadow work and psychedelic integration a year ago I have dedicated my time to studying, researching and experimenting in the areas of psychedelic and plant based medicine  and tincture making, microdosing mushrooms and LSD, and have taken courses in Life Coaching, Neurolinguistic Programming, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Herbalism. I am very excited to be currently enrolled in school to obtain degrees in Psychology so that I can acquire the credentials necessary to have my own legal psychotherapy practice so that I may legally prescribe psychedelic medicine to my clients when that becomes clinically legal to do so. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my story.